Simple Isn't Easy

I planned to write down the love of Christ in my life & hence, this diary of my journey of faith.

Yet if you have followed closely, it hasn't always been encouraging. These days the disappointment I brought to the people around me, is killing their spirits, literally as they claimed. Oh, my dear loved ones, when you are in pain, pain is in me as well. My spirit was also dead.

But I'm renewed each day. & refilled with loving spirit that I will not cease to love.

For life isn't simple, & God is simply giving it to us as a gift out of grace.

Live In The Faith Of A Child Of God

I didn't lay it all down oh Lord. Burdened with sin, struggle in faith. Why so pathetic & miserable? Do you not know that I'm such hardened hearted? & now I'm anxious over my actions for you're a just God! But my faithful Lord, your grace & mercy knows no end! You told me to have serenity to accept things I cannot change, have courage to change things I can, have wisdom to know the difference, & be still, in your holy presence.

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status report : vicious cycle. running away but the torque creates a larger circle. keep spinning, & then found myself in the middle of unknown. neither sad nor joy. neither confused nor comprehended. neither proud nor guilt. neither excited nor tired.

quote myself : please do not feel like giving up. for i’m in the same doubt. but i have hope, i don’t know how to show you because i’m still in this valley, fumbling for the exit. but i have hope, a hope that i can share. so do not give up, for me, at least.

He Knows

Before the day ends, I think it's good for a moment of reflection.

The fact is, I don't know. What I was trying to do, at my best, is to relate to God in everything in life. He knows.

Thanksgiving

Thank you Father Lord, for you are a wonderful & awesome God. Thank you, for you are our life giver, the creator of all things. Yes indeed I thank you for everything I'm having now, all the blessings that I so often taken for granted. I have gone astray & turned to my own way, but you has laid on Jesus Christ the iniquity of me. Christ sacrificed himself on the cross for my sin, the greatest love I have ever known! Thank you. For the beginning of all things, for your great plan for each of everyone of us, & for the promise of eternal life when we put our trust on Jesus, I thank you Lord.

Thank you for today that I'm alive & well, & I can come before you in prayer. Thank you for your presence with the pouring out of Spirit unto us, who is working in our lives. Thank you for the changes & revival of our souls when we declared that Jesus is Lord. Thank you Lord for your faithfulness even when we are rebellious, disobeying & denying you, violating your holy standard. Thank you for not giving up on me, please forgive me Lord. Thank you for your grace & mercy, our gracious & merciful God.

Amen.

No Surprises

aspire to lead a quiet life, to mind your own business, and to work with your own hands, as we commanded you, that you may walk properly toward those who are outside, and that you may lack nothing.

Help

The evil person tempted me. The evil person distracted me. The evil person's a stumbling block to me.

I was once in accord with the evil person 

but nothing more, because I've found real love.

The evil person still reach me. The evil person tangled with me. The evil person shared a carnal world with me.

Now 

who else will love me 

but Christ?

The evil person is to be condemned. The evil person is in me. The evil person, is me.

Who else can save my real love 

but Christ.

True Joy

Thank God we have had fun.

Heck. I'm as good as dead for the fun. Where is my joy?

Disastrous Flood, Dried Soul

Cast away from paradise, left scorching the flesh & the spirit. Miserable separation brought up waves of hopes & fears, engulfed every dried & thirsty soul. Our love was lost.

Great shock to Japan, tsunami swept across the land, & lives are awaiting salvation. You shall neither slumber nor sleep. O merciful Lord. Our love was lost, but now we've found it, yeah.

Feelings & Emotions

Take a deep breath. Expand our imagination, yet do not fantasize. We are the artists of our own lives, & God gave us the canvas. I'm thinking, how about the next big thing in my life? I'm going to design it, with all the blessings I received from above. If it is the Lord's will, we will live and do this or that.

In the surge of feelings & emotions, I give glory unto your name, my Lord. It is the intense stimulation of all sensation - one of the best things in life among all the marvelous creations by your mighty hands, that completes every piece of memorable composition. Never be enslaved by it, but use it to paint the art of life in a sweet disposition.

Thus hide it not. Express ourselves, in love.